I'll be back! Workout

 I'm quite proud of this back workout, I started off with deadlift.... and failed completely to achieve what I wanted. But I'm proud with myself for not giving up.

I was hoping to do a few sets of 3reps on 200-220kg, but only just managed the same on 180kg. It may not sound like much, but from my perspective at the time it was terrible. 

I tried several times to pull 200kg and it wasn't coming, and to add insult to injury, when I dropped back down to 180kg I only managed a single! Bombing out is always hard to handle. Especially as this has been the story of my deadlift for such a long time now. Only 2 years ago I did 20reps on 200kg in a single set! Perhaps now you can understand why I was upset - especially as I have no real answer, as to why? Yes I'm 30lb lighter than then - but I haven't lost any real strength on any other lift, so why just deadlifts?

I walked out, angry and disappointed in myself, feeling like I'd been banging my head on a wall that just won't budge. But I took 10mins to compose. Talked to the family and took my mind off of it. And with a fresh perspective, walked back into the gym. 

To start again. Time to swallow the ego and put in the foundation work I NEED rather than what I expect/want. Who cares what weight is on the bar, its the quality of the lift and the feel afterwards that matters. Improvement follows the hard work, and I need to reset my standards according to my new bodyweight. 

So I went onto 120kg. Embarrassing to write that, but swallowing the ego, its all I'm capable of at the moment, for the volume I want to do. And so I did 4 sets of 3 "heavy duty" reps on wide Conventional and a fith set on sumo. Followed by a set of 3reps on 150kg sumo. Hey its light, but the work was real. The pump was great. And I believe in the benefits it will have over time.

I left deadlift there. Enough work done, and then went onto my accessory work. I did 4-5sets on each movement, so what is in my training footage is just a snippet. But this was really the cherry on top. I left the gym pumped and feeling good about the workload.

Having enjoyed the "2nd workout" I have to go forwards now being honest with myself about the weights I need to work with. I'm no longer a competive lifter, with completely different aims and goals. As such if I need to use light weights, so be it, in the long term the benefits will come. 

Cheers and beers and thanks for reading my weights journal. Big Al 🦖💪